Stories of Sheng Zhen Men
Why did I apologize to students who followed me early on?
English translation draft · Based on the Chinese article. This is not a word-for-word translation approved by Master Shengyuan.
I was still learning while doing early on. Looking back, I felt teaching was insufficient and perhaps did not allow students following me to learn more. Some connections were subsequently lost, which I regret, so I wanted to apologize to those early students.
Founding the center at thirty did not mean understanding everything from the start. Chinese chess divination first helped people explore problems. Cultivation and service experiences gradually taught more. What I can do today accumulated through contact, learning, and adjustment.
Later exchanges with teachers showed that I had genuinely learned and could better shoulder guidance, giving me courage to share more actively. Deities also gradually built confidence. Yet cultivation may take more than a lifetime; after over twenty years then, much remained unclear.
Years passed and actual learning must therefore be distinguished. Time alone does not naturally bring growth. The apology acknowledges earlier teaching limitations. Becoming a teacher does not end the need to learn.